Category: Life

About Dreams

After about 90 minutes sleeping tonight, I suddenly woke up, and decided to talk to Chat GPT about dream. Here are the copy of our interaction, with no modification or any kind of editing (except the heading sign to see the difference between my question and AI’s response)

What is a dream, scientifically?

Scientifically, a dream is a series of thoughts, images, and sensations occurring in a person’s mind during sleep. Dreams mainly occur during the rapid-eye movement (REM) stage of sleep, where brain activity is high and resembles that of being awake. During REM sleep, the brain undergoes increased neuronal activity, and the body experiences a temporary paralysis of most voluntary muscles, which is thought to prevent the dreamer from acting out their dreams.

The exact functions of dreaming, however, are still a topic of research and debate among scientists. Some prevailing theories include:

  1. Psychological processing: Dreams may help in processing emotions and memories. According to this theory, dreaming allows individuals to work through the emotional events of their day.
  2. Memory consolidation: Some researchers believe that dreams play a role in the consolidation of memories, where the brain sorts and stores experiences, data, and learned skills.
  3. Cognitive simulation: Dreams might be a way for the brain to prepare itself to face various challenges by simulating potential real-life scenarios.
  4. Neurological housekeeping: Another theory suggests that dreaming allows the brain to clear out unnecessary information and repair itself from the day’s wear and tear.

These explanations are not mutually exclusive and may all contribute to the reasons why we dream. Each theory offers a different perspective on the importance of dreams to cognitive, emotional, and psychological functioning.

Draw me some example of what people are seeing during a dream

Here is an image depicting a surreal dream scene, with elements often associated with vivid dreams.

Why can’t I read books in my dreams? All letters look blurs or random.

Reading in dreams can be challenging because the part of the brain responsible for reading and text processing is less active during sleep. Specifically, the regions involved in language processing and interpretation, like the angular gyrus and other parts of the temporal and frontal lobes, may not be as engaged during the rapid eye movement (REM) stage of sleep, when most vivid dreams occur.

Moreover, dreams are primarily driven by visual and emotional experiences rather than logical narratives or detailed tasks like reading. The content of dreams is often spontaneous and fluid, making fixed and detailed tasks like reading difficult. The text in dreams might appear blurred, constantly changing, or nonsensical because the brain does not focus on maintaining stable, readable text but rather on creating dynamic and often symbolic visual scenes.

So, when you try to read in a dream, the text may shift, change, or remain illegible because the dream is not maintaining the stability needed for reading as it would occur when you are awake.

Draw an example of an opening book seen by people in their dream

Here is an image depicting a dreamlike vision of an opening book with blurred and shifting text, capturing the mystical and surreal quality often experienced in dreams.

On the other hand, sometimes I could find a solution of calculation or computing problems or ideas during a dream. Can you explain it?

Dreams can indeed be a source of creative problem-solving and insights, a phenomenon that many people have experienced. This occurs for several reasons:

  1. Unrestricted Thinking: When you’re asleep, the brain is not bound by the same logical constraints as when you’re awake. This allows for more free and associative thinking, where ideas can combine in novel and unexpected ways.
  2. Memory Consolidation: Sleep, particularly REM sleep, plays a significant role in consolidating memories and making connections between new and old information. This process can lead to insights or solutions that you might not consciously make when awake.
  3. Reduction in Cognitive Inhibition: During sleep, especially in the REM phase, there is a decrease in cognitive inhibition, which is the brain’s ability to suppress irrelevant or distracting thoughts. This reduction can allow for more creative and broad thinking, which might lead to solving problems or generating new ideas.
  4. Subconscious Processing: Dreams might reflect the brain’s attempt to work through unresolved problems or ideas that have been lingering in the subconscious. When these issues surface in dreams, they can sometimes be resolved or approached from a new angle.

Historically, there are famous instances of scientific and artistic breakthroughs occurring in dreams. For example, chemist Dmitri Mendeleev famously dreamt the arrangement of the periodic table, and Elias Howe figured out the mechanism of the sewing machine needle in a dream. These examples highlight how the relaxed and unique state of dreaming can contribute to creative and problem-solving processes.

Draw me a combination of people faces blurred and interchanged during a dream

Here is an image depicting a surreal artistic representation of multiple people’s faces blurred and merging together, capturing the dreamy and mysterious quality of how faces can appear in dreams.

In their dreams, can people talk with different languages they do not usually speak with in real life?

It’s rare, but possible, for people to speak or understand languages in their dreams that they don’t fluently speak in waking life. This phenomenon usually involves languages that the dreamer has been exposed to at some point, even if they haven’t fully learned or mastered them. Here are a few scenarios where this might happen:

  1. Subconscious retention: Someone might have been exposed to a language through family, friends, or media, and this exposure is retained subconsciously. These linguistic elements can then surface in dreams.
  2. Language study: If someone has studied a language in the past but hasn’t achieved fluency, they might still dream in that language, often mixing it with their native language or other known languages.
  3. Symbolic use: Languages in dreams can also have symbolic meanings. Dreaming in a different language could reflect a desire to understand something foreign or unfamiliar in one’s life.

However, speaking a completely unknown language fluently in a dream—without any prior exposure—is highly unlikely and not supported by scientific evidence. Dreams might make it feel like one is fluently speaking another language, but this perception is more about the dream’s narrative and emotional impact than actual linguistic competency.

I’m interested with the symbolic meaning in a dream. Give me more explorations and examples of the symbolic use in people’s dreams.

Dream symbolism is a fascinating aspect of how our subconscious minds communicate deeper thoughts, emotions, and desires. Symbolic meanings in dreams can vary widely based on cultural, personal, and situational contexts. Here are some common symbolic uses and examples in dreams:

  1. Flying: Often represents freedom or escape. Flying in a dream might indicate a desire to rise above problems or to gain a new perspective on something.
  2. Falling: This can symbolize anxieties and fears of failure or losing control. Falling in a dream might reflect insecurities or instability in one’s life.
  3. Water: The state of water in dreams can reflect emotional states. Calm water might symbolize peace and clarity, while turbulent water might suggest emotional upheaval or uncertainty.
  4. Teeth falling out: This common dream symbol can indicate anxiety about appearance or feelings of powerlessness or loss. It might also relate to fear of rejection or personal embarrassment.
  5. Locked doors or obstacles: These often symbolize barriers in one’s life that one might be facing or feeling restricted by. Finding a key or a way around the obstacle can represent solving a problem or overcoming a challenge.
  6. Meeting a celebrity: This can symbolize aspirations or ambitions. Alternatively, it might reflect the qualities you see in the celebrity that you associate with yourself or wish to develop.
  7. Animals: Different animals can represent different aspects of one’s personality or life situations based on their perceived characteristics. For example, a lion might symbolize strength and leadership, while a snake might represent hidden threats or wisdom.
  8. Being chased: This is often tied to avoidance in one’s waking life. Being chased in a dream might indicate running away from a problem or an aspect of yourself that you don’t want to confront.
  9. Taking a test: Frequently related to job or school pressures but can also symbolize a self-evaluation of one’s abilities or performance in some area of life.

Dreams can serve as a mirror reflecting our inner thoughts, worries, and joys. Interpreting these symbols can offer insights into one’s emotional and psychological state, helping to understand hidden feelings and unresolved issues. The personal meaning of symbols can vary, and exploring these in the context of one’s own life can be particularly revealing.

In my dreams, I can see colours. But many people said that they can only dream in black and white. What is the reasons of the difference?

The experience of dreaming in color versus black and white has intrigued both scientists and psychologists. Here are some key points that can help explain the differences in how people perceive colors in their dreams:

  1. Historical and Cultural Influences: Research suggests that the prevalence of black-and-white media, like television and films in the early 20th century, may have influenced the way people dreamed. Studies conducted in the 1950s and 1960s noted that older individuals who grew up with black and white television and film often reported dreaming in black and white. In contrast, younger individuals who were exposed to color media were more likely to dream in color. This suggests that visual media can influence dream imagery.
  2. Neurological Factors: The regions of the brain involved in processing visual information might work differently while asleep. During most dreams, which occur during the REM (rapid eye movement) stage of sleep, the brain is highly active, and its visual centers can simulate experiences that are both vivid and colorful, similar to what it does when awake. Variations in neurological activity among different people could explain the differences in color perception in dreams.
  3. Personal Perception and Recall: The way people remember their dreams can also influence their descriptions of them. Dream recall varies greatly among individuals, and some may not remember the color details of their dreams, leading to a perception that they dream in black and white.
  4. Psychological and Emotional States: Emotional content and psychological states can influence how vividly colors are perceived in dreams. For example, intense emotions such as fear or joy can make dream colors appear more vivid.

Overall, whether someone dreams in color or black and white can depend on a mix of historical, neurological, and psychological factors, and personal memory of the dream upon waking.

Why are many dreams easily forgotten, while some dreams could be easily remembered for years; and why are some dreams are repeated?

Dreams can vary widely in how memorable they are or whether they recur, and several factors influence this:

  1. Emotional Intensity: Dreams that are emotionally charged are more likely to be remembered. The more intense the emotions involved in a dream—whether they’re positive or negative—the more likely the dream is to leave a lasting impression. The brain tends to prioritize emotional experiences because they are often crucial for survival and learning.
  2. Timing of Awakening: Dreams are more easily remembered if you wake up during or immediately after REM sleep, which is the phase of sleep most associated with vivid dreaming. Waking during this phase can interrupt the dream and thereby cement it more firmly in your memory.
  3. Focus and Reflection: The more you think about a dream upon waking, the more likely you are to remember it. Reflecting on a dream right after waking can encode it into your long-term memory.
  4. Personal Relevance: Dreams that contain elements closely connected to your waking life—such as significant others, major worries, or life events—are more likely to be remembered because they resonate more deeply with your emotions and concerns.
  5. Repetition and Patterns: Dreams might recur due to unresolved issues or ongoing stressors in your life. The recurring dream might be the mind’s way of trying to work out unresolved problems. Recurring dreams can often persist until the underlying issue is addressed.
  6. Neurological Factors: Some people naturally have better dream recall than others, possibly due to differences in brain structure or function. Additionally, certain medications, substances, and sleep disorders can impact how vividly dreams are remembered or how frequently certain dreams might occur.

Understanding why some dreams are remembered while others are forgotten involves looking at how dreams are processed and stored in memory, as well as individual differences in emotional and cognitive responses. These factors together influence the vividness, recurrence, and recall of dreams.

Sometimes I got some real problems with some people (life or dead) and could not solve it with communications (due to emotional barriers, disrespect, negligence, or death), and it stressed me extremely. But a single dream with those people with the people talked to me cheerfully or warmly or comfortably may really heal and comfort me quickly and sometimes permanently. What are happening?

When you experience a comforting dream involving someone with whom you’ve had unresolved issues or conflicts, several psychological processes are at play, contributing to the feeling of resolution and emotional relief:

  1. Emotional Processing: Dreams are a way for your subconscious to process emotions and thoughts that you might not have fully dealt with during waking hours. When you dream about reconciling or having positive interactions with someone you’ve had difficulties with, it can help mitigate feelings of distress, providing emotional closure or at least a temporary respite from the stress.
  2. Symbolic Resolution: Dreams often operate on a symbolic level. Communicating warmly with someone who has caused you stress or is no longer accessible in real life can be the mind’s way of seeking resolution and peace. This can symbolically fulfill the need for reconciliation or understanding, reducing emotional tension.
  3. Neurological Release: During REM sleep, which is when most vivid dreaming occurs, the brain’s chemistry changes—certain stress-related neurotransmitters are suppressed, and the brain processes emotional experiences differently than when awake. This can lead to a sense of relief and lowered anxiety regarding the situation or person involved.
  4. Cognitive Restructuring: Dreaming about a positive interaction with someone can change your perspective about the past conflicts or the person themselves. This shift in perception can make you feel better about the situation, even if nothing has changed in the real world.
  5. Therapeutic Effect: Dreams have a therapeutic component; they allow you to experience scenarios that you desire or need for emotional health that might not be possible in reality. Engaging positively in a dream with someone who is deceased or with whom communication is broken can provide a sense of what psychologists might call “corrective emotional experience.” This experience can be profoundly healing.

In summary, these dreams where you interact positively with individuals who have caused you stress can act as an internal coping mechanism, providing comfort, emotional release, and sometimes a new way to frame real-life relationships and past interactions. This internal resolution can significantly impact your emotional well-being and day-to-day life.

Are there some methods to induce or trigger some dreams to reduce emotional or health tension?

Yes, there are several methods that can help induce specific types of dreams or enhance dream recall, which in turn can contribute to reducing emotional or health tension. These methods focus on influencing the content and quality of your dreams, potentially making them more positive or helpful in processing emotional issues. Here are some techniques to consider:

  1. Dream Journaling: Keeping a dream journal by your bedside and writing down your dreams immediately upon waking can help increase dream recall and awareness. Over time, this practice can make it easier to recognize patterns in your dreams and possibly influence their content consciously.
  2. Imagery Rehearsal Therapy (IRT): This is a cognitive-behavioral technique used especially for treating nightmares, particularly in individuals with PTSD. Before going to bed, you visualize a pleasant dream or think about how to transform a recurring nightmare into a positive dream. This can help change the dream’s narrative once you’re asleep.
  3. Mnemonic Induction of Lucid Dreams (MILD): Before falling asleep, you tell yourself repeatedly that you will remember to recognize that you are dreaming. This technique can lead to lucid dreaming, where you are aware that you are dreaming and can potentially control the dream’s content, making it possible to address specific emotional or health-related issues consciously within the dream.
  4. Sleep Hygiene: Maintaining a regular sleep schedule, creating a comfortable sleep environment, and avoiding stimulants before bed can enhance the quality of your sleep and, by extension, your dreams. Better sleep quality can lead to more vivid dreams, which may be more easily remembered and more emotionally expressive.
  5. Focused Meditation and Relaxation Techniques: Practicing meditation or relaxation techniques before bed can set the stage for more positive dreams. These practices can calm the mind and may help direct the themes of your dreams toward more calming, soothing scenarios.
  6. Intention Setting: Before going to bed, set a clear intention or ask a specific question you want your dreams to address. This can sometimes influence the subconscious to generate dreams that revolve around these intentions, providing insight or emotional relief.
  7. Aromatic Cues: Aromatherapy with essential oils such as lavender can promote relaxation and potentially influence dream content. Some studies suggest that smells can affect the emotional tone of dreams.

These techniques are not only useful for trying to direct the content of dreams but also serve as excellent practices for improving overall sleep quality and emotional well-being.

Do happy people have less frequent bad dreams? Personally I only rarely experience bad dreams. Or, I don’t know, may be they are easily forgotten.

There is evidence suggesting that overall happiness and emotional well-being can influence the nature of dreams, including the frequency and intensity of bad dreams or nightmares.

  1. Emotional Regulation: People who are generally happier tend to have better emotional regulation skills. They are more likely to process negative emotions effectively while awake, which can lead to fewer unresolved issues spilling over into their dreams. This emotional processing can contribute to more positive or neutral dreams and fewer nightmares.
  2. Stress and Anxiety Levels: Higher levels of happiness often correlate with lower levels of stress and anxiety, which are significant contributors to bad dreams. Individuals who are less stressed might experience fewer anxiety-driven dreams or nightmares.
  3. Mood and Dream Content: Research indicates a link between mood before sleep and dream content. A positive mood at bedtime can lead to more pleasant dreams, whereas a negative mood can predispose you to more disturbing dreams.
  4. Recall Bias: The relationship between mood and dream recall also plays a role. Happier individuals might not necessarily have fewer bad dreams, but they may have a selective recall bias towards remembering more positive dreams or quickly forgetting unpleasant dreams.
  5. Psychological Resilience: Happiness is often associated with psychological resilience, which might help mitigate the impact of any bad dreams that do occur. Resilient individuals can recover more quickly from negative experiences, including bad dreams, possibly making such dreams seem less frequent or severe.

While individual experiences can vary widely, overall emotional well-being, including happiness, does seem to influence dream patterns. If you rarely experience bad dreams, it could indeed be a reflection of your general happiness or your ability to effectively manage and forget negative experiences in your dreams.

Can AI dream?

The idea of an AI “dreaming” can be intriguing, but it’s important to clarify what is meant by “dreaming” in this context. In biological organisms, dreams are a product of the brain’s complex neurological activity during sleep, serving various cognitive and emotional functions. AI, however, does not sleep, nor does it have a brain in the biological sense, so it does not dream in the way humans do.

However, there are AI processes that might be metaphorically described as “dreaming”:

  1. Generative Models: AI systems, especially those based on neural networks, can generate new content after being trained on large datasets. This includes generating images, music, text, and other forms of media. For example, deep learning models like Generative Adversarial Networks (GANs) can create images of objects or scenes that do not exist, somewhat akin to how a human mind might generate the content of a dream based on past experiences.
  2. DeepDream: Google’s DeepDream is an example where an AI algorithm modifies images to enhance and alter the image’s features to produce dream-like, surrealistic effects. This process has been likened to dreaming because the AI takes existing information (an image) and reinterprets it in visually unexpected ways, emphasizing patterns in a manner similar to how the human brain might during dreaming.
  3. Neural Network Visualization: Some AI researchers visualize what is happening inside neural networks, often during the training process. This can sometimes be described as AI “dreaming” about the concepts it is learning, as these visualizations can produce abstract and intriguing patterns that show how the network processes information.

These activities are sometimes metaphorically described as “dreaming” because they involve the AI system processing or reimagining information in creative or unexpected ways. However, this is fundamentally different from the biological processes of dreaming in humans, which are tied to consciousness, subconscious processing, and neurobiological functions of the brain during sleep.

Draw what AI may see in their dream, speculatively.



When I started the chat, I did not plan it to be that long; and just abour 5-10 minutes after the last response, I decided that I need it to be recorded somewhere for my future reference, i.e. in by blog.


A short visit doday to Bunda Heart Centre in the central part of Jakarta to discuss some inexplicable discomfort in my internal circulation — a part of internal supply chain strategic operation.

Playing with the electronic devices, I was reminded to my jokes on the complexity theory in my past lecture in Udayana University, when I jokingly asked that if I got a heart seizure on the very time, I didn’t think any people might help me in that room, even when they know that heart is composed by cells composed by molecules composed by atoms composed by protons and electrons etc, and the room was full with experts in electrons and protons.

Well, I will not tell you the result here. Not here, for sure.


When we talk about elegance, usually we refer to designs: product, web, programme, etc. But, while we’re in it, we can discuss about elegance in life: how to set the maximal simplicity to our way of life, while maintaining the highest performance possible in it.

Life is beautiful, right?


Gamelan is a suite of musical instruments from Greater Sunda Islands in Indonesia. While some neighboring countries are currently using gamelan as one of the icons to attract prospective tourists to visit the regions in Southeast Asia, and there is no doubt that any reginal cultures result from mutual influence of the neighbouring ethnics, it has been admitted by international communities that the musical orchestra suite called gamelan is indeed a culture of Indonesia.

Javanese gamelan was once performed in the U.S. in the 19th century. Also to European countries at the beginning of the 20th century. At that time, the composer Claude Debussy was so enthralled. “Compared to this Javanese music, the European music is really decadent,” he implied. Then we could see many works of Debussy referring to the style of gamelan. Previously, the young Debussy was heard complained, “All the beautiful tones have been written by Wagner. What could be left for our generation?” But then who would have thought that, in addition to atonal music style, he also fled to the gamelan?

In Indonesia, we could see the Javanese gamelan that is gentle and philosophical, Balinese gamelan that is very dynamic, Sundanese calung, and other variations.

I spent my childhood in Malang city in Java. As in many other places, local cultures were included to the formal education. At school we were taught how to play the gamelan, how to sing Javanese tembang, how to write old Java script (aksara Jawa), etc. Our teacher was an expert who has a great passion in traditional art. He recognized that I plays gamelan quite well, technically. But he also said that I do not have the artistic soul. Particularly, I know he hated it when I tried to play rock and roll with the kendang when the the auditorium was still quiet. But, when conducting a performance in front of students parents, he appointed me in the position of kendang, which according to him was not equivalent to the drums or timpani, but more like a conductor: to lead the rhythm.

I must recognize that in fact I’m not a real fans of Javanese culture. I love universal culture. What’s the point of having Ronggowarsito in Java, when we also had Marx or Nietzsche in the same era. But gamelan is different. It remains as my interest. A few years later, after graduating from Coventry, I got a feeling that I missed gamelan. So I volunteered to join the traditional art ensemble in Bandung to play gamelan. That was not simple: I had to spend 2 nights per week to improve my play, with people who were as tired as I was, after office hour.

At that time we managed to perform The Legend of Ande Ande Lumut in the form of Wayang Orang, with full gamelan orchestration. I held an instrument called Bonang Penerus. This position was quite stressful, visually. At the other instrument players could look at the stage, my position required me to look at the audience. I could not play while viewing what’s on stage, but continued to see the expression of the audience.There were some other small events when we casually play the gamelan, including accompanying a wedding ceremony of the son of our R&D Division’s boss. It was surprising. The brides parents actually invited us, and wondered why many of our team did not appear to come. After finishing playing, we greeted the family. The boss stunned as he realised that some of the guests he expected were really playing the gamelan orchestra for the ceremony.

OK, the last picture here is not a real performance. Last week I had to provide a presentation about Mobile Blogging at the Telkom Building in South Jakarta. In the hall, I saw a quite complete set of a gamelan instruments. After my presentation, just before the lunch, I spent a couple minutes to play the Bonang Barung instrument, very-very softly. And the prominent blogger Priyadi took my picture.

Nielsen's Fifth Symphony

A couple years ago (it looks like just yesterday), I attended a performance of Nielsen Symphony #5 by Birmingham Symphony Orchestra at Warwick Art Centre. Only a couple months ago I found the CD of symphony, and only a couple hours ago I had the time to fully listen to it with no distraction, on a short flight from Yogyakarta to Jakarta. I cannot not exactly describe what I felt, but I guess it was a sensation even Nielsen had not imagined.

Last night I worked in the front of a mirror. Facing my own face, I realised that I was carrying the me I was not really familiar with: another me with awkward ways to express his ideas and feelings. Funny that I could see it, yet without having idea whether it should be overcome, on only to be laughed at. I chose the second. But when entering the plane, I figured that since this is not the real me (you know what I mean), why don’t I create simply create another me. It should be as simple as instantiating a class into an object :D. So I chose not to listen to Wagner or Beethoven; and there came Nielsen ;).

You could read my Indonesian blog or the wiki page discussing the symphony. But I must tell you: it is sensational to listen to it while viewing the sky-wide white clouds among the scarce blue sky. The annoying percussion, the cloud, the misplaced consistent motif of the clarinet, the bluish violet sky, the rich variety of dancing strings, the scarce green land below, the annoying pain inside my head, and I see the soul, of human, of the universe, its history, its law, its mathematic formulas, its perceived causality. Then I realised: I could not create another me. I found the old me that I have so far no time to see and to talk to.

For some obvious reasons, Nielsen would not be as famous as Beethoven or Wagner, or even Debussy or Stravinsky. And I know tomorrow I will listen to Wagner or Stravinsky like a maniac, and I will work like crazy so I will be blind again :). But today I want to (like a grammy awardee) express my deep gratitude 🙂 to Nielsen. Even only for a couple minutes, the symphony had filtered the thick clouds inside my mind, so I could see myself.

Here’s an excerpt of the first movement. Play it only if you have enough time and patience. And, sorry, an excerpt surely cannot replace the complete symphony 😉


It would not be my blog, had it not a discussion on Wagner :). DVD and CD of Wagner’s music & opera are hard to find in Indonesia (it was easier to find 10 years ago). So I need to be very lucky or have to literally escape from the country to find a good Wagner’s performance records. So far I have only 4 DVDs of Wagner’s visual performance: Die Götterdämmerung, Der Meistersinger von Nurnberg, Die Walküre I bought last month, and newly bought Siegfried.

Siegfried might be the least mentioned part of Der Ring Des Nibelungen tetralogy. But it is not the least important. Got stuck with the beauty of Die Walküre for months (many versions of music, excerpts, on stage performances, and complete operas), then the sound of hammer of Siegfried forging his sword fill in my ears, with acute violin & viola screams as the background, for weeks. It is Siegfried. The monologues, dialogues, and music are obviously written by a philosopher. Wagner was a comrade of Bakunin, a devout follower of Schopenhauer, and then a friend and mentor of Nietzsche.

Act 1 started with a gloomy dwarf who complained a lifetime oppression (reminds me to the opening of any Srimulat operas). He took care of thankless strong boy Siegfried, whom he gave food and taught wisdom. Came then Siegfried with a bear, fearless and careless. The dialogue opens our eyes what really happened. Mime taught with word, but his deeds were indeed ugly, just like Indonesian contemporary politicians. The cunning plan of Mime’s dialogue now reminds us of any Indonesian all low quality sinetrons. The fearless Siegfried was once copied in one episode of Astérix. OK, now you know that I watch sinetron, Srimulat, Astérix, and those ugly Indonesian political stages. Sorry to let you know :).


Back to Siegfried. Since Wagner’s year, Bayreuth is the center, and the standard, of Wagnerian culture. It sets new standard of the opera: in classical style, in contemporary style, in Star Wars mode, etc. In this 1980s records (of 1976 performance), the stage was shifted to display a huge smithing installation. A huge and quasi-functional :). That’s where in the fantastic visualisation Siegfried reforged his father’s Notung sword. As the strong sword was finished, the Act 1 ended.

Act 2 started with a gloomy music I have discussed a few years ago on Isnet mail group (discussing music as a way to communicate ideas). Then … then who cares. It is only a century old story :). Hahah :). I just impressed on how Siegmund (Siegfried’s father, performed in Die Walküre) is a total contrast to his son. The compassionate yet unlucky Siegmund carried the world upon his shoulder, loved his betraying god & father. Siegfried was totally free, fearless, careless, and took anything in his way in almost no expression on his face. Many criticized Manfred Jung because of his poor expression as Siegfried, but I think that’s the correct expression of a Siegfried. He could make the strongest sword (a stronger version of Notung), he could kill the dragon and cunning Mime without second thought. In Act 3 he could easily defeat his grandfather (who previously easily defeat his father, and frightened all powerful valkyries) and called him ‘coward!’ — plus he could find a lovely companion. That’s what Wagner’s concept of a hero. Let’s laugh at Wagner :). Let’s laugh at whoever wants to win the world, or the universe. Let’s laugh at ourselves.

No, Wagner knew that. He would then easily killed Siegfried in Götterdämmerung, in a stupid way :). The world needs no hero. And the god’s palace must be burnt. And that’s not the end. Life goes on. Gloomily or cheerfully as you may choose freely. You are the only one to choose the universe, to choose the way you are. Among Schopenhauer and Nietzsche, Wagner is possibly an existentialist. But let’s throw all labels. Let’s just live the life.


TNIThen he proudly displayed his first email address on his business card. Always curious with technology. I still remember his article series, discussing the aspects of electronic war. And the nights we spent to discuss philosophical cases. And his old typewriter (AZERTY, not QWERTY), that he at last left for the wordprocessor in his computers. He loves playing with typefaces. But over all: the quality of the text itself.

His letters, his diaries (where are those?), has disabled me to stop writing. These blogs are his fault :).

Eh, happy birthday, Dad. Five years you had left us; just about a week after the card with the email address. Hahah, it’s not like five years. You still come to my dreams, and we still discuss those paradoxes. Hahah. You used to be proud of your student — the current president of the republic. Five years ago you came in hurry from Pekanbaru only to vote for him. Sigh, I still cannot find a reason to share the proudness  :(.

Btw, I love you. And proud of you.

Coventry Inspires

As you might know, this is not my first blog, nor my first english blog. But on recent days, when you search «coventry» in, you will find the first picture refers to my first english blog: Here’s the picture:


The first time I read about Coventry was when I read «The Secret Seven» by Enid Blyton. The idiom «being sent to Coventry» according to the book means being excommunicated. There is a real history about that, actually. But interestingly, then I lived in Coventry to study communications :D. I lived one year in that historical town to pursue my postgrad in telecommunications technology in Coventry University.

Both Coventry and Coventry University have a phoenix as their logo. Also there is a history about that. In World War II, The Luftwaffe has bombed almost all essential part of the city. The city was totally destroyed into dust and debris. But from the ashes, a new Coventry was born. Like a phoenix, it was born from its ashes, created itself with greater spirit. It tied itself with Stalingrad as sister city for solidarity, but then also with Dresden for reconciliation. The spirit of Coventry makes the world believes that even from a great catastrophe we can rise and shine the world. Coventry inspires.

Sometimes I use or wear the picture of the Coventry’s phoenix. It inspires to see the phoenix in me. I am not an all-time winner. But I surely know that each time I fall: I will rise, and I will shine.

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